FondueFebruary 21st 1989 (Age 22) Female North Carolina
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Blink 182 is the greatest
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bwahaha. . . i love this video. . . my main source of entertainment this summer...
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005
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Eysenck's Test Results |
Extraversion (62%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
Neuroticism (67%) moderately high which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Psychoticism (45%) medium medium which suggests you are moderately self interested, willful, and difficult, while still respecting the well being of others.
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this is me i guess... if i were asked to describe myself i wouldn't have said this, but after taking the test, i really woke up to it and realized that every ounce of these results is every inch of me...
Posted at 8:13 pm by Fondue
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Monday, March 21, 2005
LJ Friends Meme by
this quiz is actually really weird... lol XD it's pretty accurate... but not entirely: like the first thing... about T-ravis lol cuz i lurve him, but i'm not "in love" with him lol and lost w/out you doesn't go w/ t-aylor :P and i think i like t-aylor... but i'm never too sure [positive it wouldn't work out tho lol]
• You must tell 8 people about this game.
• T-ravis is the one that you love.
• t-aylor is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about mikey r.
• mi-shell is the one who knows you very well.
• k-t is your lucky star.
• i miss you is the song that matches with T-ravis.
• lost w/out you is the song for t-aylor.
• helena is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and cemetary drive is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz
Posted at 2:49 am by Fondue
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Friday, February 18, 2005
I've been a bit sick lately. . . =__=
However, it's not like an "illness" it's just my emotions and my nerves getting the best of me. My mom and dad too. Yo see, like i had noted previously, my sister is into Marajajuana [long word. . . ] and on Valentines Day she was arrested for selling the junk. ok my sister is no junkie, nor is she a very "evil-doer" she's also only 20. I wasn't suprised, even though i knew she smoked pot, i had no idea that she'd actually have the brains to sell the crap. my mom, however, was hysterical. she couldn't believe what was happening. Now my mom, dad and i all had some sort of nervous stomach flu and we're waiting on my sister to do something. we bailed her out [which i feel is pointless, since those of you who don't know the court system, also don't know that you're only out of jail until the court date. then you can have payroll. {moving on}] . now she's back with her fiance, and this is a huge disappointment, and i'm just like "whatever" you know...? I'm mostly concerned about her future.
she wants to be a nurse. . . isn't that nice? if she is charged for her felons [2] then her life is basically over and she will bring shame to our household for not getting a good enough job [my family is very strict on honorific jobs] after all, the medical field is only for the best and the brightest--not for potheads unfortunately...
on a lighter note: today i went to school! yay! all was good and dandy. Geometric proofs suck as usual... -_- and i got to watch this awesome video about parasites in biology! that was a lot of fun. i find parasitology so incredibly intersting. Everyone was freaking out really bad, but i was enjoying it. is that weird of a girl my age?
oh! speaking of age, i'm turning 16 on mon. 21!!! yay for me! "Snaps for Steph!" *snap, snap, snap!*
i'm not going to do anything special though. I'm just going to take a couple friends to see constantine... ^_^ bwahahahahah! yay keanu! ^_^ he ist teh sex!
Posted at 3:56 pm by Fondue
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Saturday, December 18, 2004
lots o' quiz goodies ^_^ hee
You Are Lee.
Which Naruto Student Are You?
You are Sasuke!
Which Naruto Character Are You?
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Sasuke Uchiha!
Which Naruto guy would you date?
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You are Sakura Haruna! You are strong willed and determined, but can, if
you want to pull off sweet. Unfourtunatly, when
Naruto's around, you only show spite. But your
still a nice person...sort of...umm...And your
obsessed with Sasuke!
Which female Naruto ninja are you?
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Rasengan This is the "new" ultimate move of
Naruto. It's a ball of spiralling chakra formed
on the palm. It seems to do minmal external
damage, but can devastate the insides. This is
the attack of the Fourth's Hokage, Jiraiya and
Naruto. A super difficult jutsu to master.
Naruto has to use his Kage Bunshin to start it.
What Is Your Signature Jutsu? (Naruto)
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YOU'RE UCHIHA SASUKE! Sasuke is the natural genius
offspring of the powerful Uchiha Clan. The most
outstanding Clan in Leaf Village, the Uchiha's
advanced bloodline give them the ability of the
Sharingan. This ability allows Sasuke to be
able to perform other's Jutsu just by having
once witnessed it in use, as well as the
ability to anticipate what a person may do
next, and see through GenJutsu among other
things.
What Naruto Character Character are You Most Like
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Sasuke
Which Naruto character do you fight like?(pics)
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Bitter Rivals, yet Best friends, the two of you
will lay you lives down for the other. When
one's life is in danger, you don't think, you
save him not matter what the cost. Youre both
like and unlike each other in many different
ways. Both of you grew up alone, never knowing
the love of a parent, and although ones seeks
for revenge and the other attention, once your
paths cross, both your goals will become one
and the same: to beat the other in skill.
Which Naruto Yaoi Couple Are You?
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Posted at 2:15 am by Fondue
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Friday, December 03, 2004
^_^ yesterday in Cha Yon Ryu, i got to lead the class in warm ups because our teacher was late ^_^ . . . =__= everyone else was just goofin' off, so i took initiative and i rocked the bossiness as usual ^.^
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thinking about that. . . i really am pretty bossy. lol and i don't like it when i'm bossed around. i get really angry and retaliate by messing things up lol. i know, kind of mean and childish, but i'm only 15. i'm still a kid. and to contradict myself, i'm one of the most mature out of my friends. . . o_O perhaps the most mature at this point. . . wait. . . nvr mine, it's definently out of most.
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i wanna be friends with a quiet lonely guy. . . that's really hot. . . [shallowness kicking in lmao XD] but on a more serious note, i just want a guy friend that is like. . . i dunno how to explain it. . . the cool, quiet, asshole kind of guy but like sweet at the same time @.@ uhh. . . >.< oie! confusing myself! i really dunno why either LMAO XD. . . i suppose it's because all my friends are pretty static. . . not that deep either. . . they may be in their own way, but if i told them what i've told some people on the internet then they'd probably just pretend to understand. they've got their own problems to deal with!
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i think in general: i'm a lot better on the mental note. physically i'm really sick! O.O *coughs*
but yeah. . . on a mental note, i've gotten a lot better ^_^ a new and improved step program that helps me see things more clearly!
1. smile all the time, even when you're sad ^_^
2. compliment people. for anything, like their keychain, clothes, hair etc. anything ^.^
3. profit
4. look at the sky for a few seconds longer and look for a perfect scene. Set that in your mind for the rest of the day and if something bad happens, just think of that sky.
5. daydream about something you love. . . or rp with yourself ^_^
6. make other people feel special and it might boost your own confidence ^.^
i dunno why, but it makes me happy to see that i have made other people happy.
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btw. . . =__= step 3 is always profit, no matter what. . . even if it has nothing to do with anything, just like now. . . step 3 is ALWAYS profit. . . heh. . .
Posted at 5:16 pm by Fondue
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Sunday, November 21, 2004
=__= meh...
yep, another one of "those days"
I went to go hang out at my sister, Crystal's house today. yay... I was really looking forward to it until we got on the highway and she was all giggly and stupid. I was like: "dude, are you high?"
Crystal: "duh!"
i was like: "jesus... couldn't you have done that later... and i thought you were going to quit..."
C: "i did, then i came back, but I'm totally quitting when corey [her friend] starts."
Me: "WTF? >.<"
C: "you'll understand when you're a pot head ok?"
Me: "When...?"
C: "Yeah... like... a big clue is that you like all those stoner movies... like:..."
she was too high to remember
C: "but, yeah... you're gonna be a total stoner."
i was thinking "WTF? i'm Not going to f*ck up my life. i've got too much going for me, being like you isn't going to get me rich mmkay." but i dropped the subject cuz she had the munchies and took me to MacDonalds ^_^
on the way back to my house, i tried confiding in her, but it was no use... yet another person who doesn't understand that there really is something going wrong w/ me. It doesn't matter anyway... cuz they always think i'm faking. So once again... i'll have to dig myself out of my coffin... =__= such is the life of me...
<3 i like cheese! ^_^
Posted at 5:13 pm by Fondue
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Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Friday: At lunch we dicovered that the Nestlie Quik machine was well... broken! At the same time, However, it work so well for us. First, the Pollock went up to the machine and began to act strange. So the Jew went up there to see what was going on. Then he started giggling and looking around, and I though that was wierd so I looked at the Commie and he shrugged. I sighed and got up, checking what all the hullabaloo was. They showed me: Obliged. I watched in wonder as the Pollock put the quarters into the machine, and I watched as the came back through the change bin. This was odd and nothing to rejoice about, but I looked at the money counter and there it was; the dollar fifty was accounted for. We exchanged smiles and nodded. Words were not needed to know what was next. All words except: "Strawberry, Chocolate, or Vanilla...?" I chose chocolate, of course, and the Jew got a couple of strawberries and the Pollock took at least five or six of various flavors and putting them into his pockets. It was the most gratifying chocolate milk I have ever had ^_^
Saturday: ... meh... I went to see Team America, to find that it was no longer in theaters... *runs off crying*
Sunday: omg i spent the whole day at Carowinds and it was so friggin' awesome! Top Gun was the BEST! i was like: woosh! whee! ^_^ my mom had to be- what I like to call:- The Bouy. The person who has to stay behind with the little wimpy kids while everyone else gets to ride the awesome rides. So my dad and I rode Top gun and Borg the Assimilator. *_* so awesome I still like the so cal theme parks better... =__= the food may be more expensive, but I was practically raised in them so I know them like the back of my hand. Like my first real roller coaster was wind jammer at knotts berry farm it banged your head against the seat, but my cousin and I were proud to be--non chicken'... oh yeah...
The funny thing was: I didn't feel vertigo or like that anxious feeling before you get on the ride, like i used to... It was like getting into a car lol
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Monday, November 01, 2004
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Friday, October 29, 2004
I think Wed. was the deadline for the Dec. SAT sign up. But it doesn't really matter anyway, since I'm not going to take it anymore. In case you didn't know: I'm in the tenth grade. No need for the SAT yet, right? Wrong. I wanted to get into this awesome boarding school that's only for the brightest kids in North Carolina. I gave up before I even started... I always had high aspirations for myself. "I'll be so rich, I'll have like four mansions and my own island." I've been saying things like that my whole life. I considered the ideal life for me is being filthy rich. And it still is.
It means that I worked hard and succeeded in accomplishing my goal. Being rich... wanting to be rich... does not make a person stingy. It's a natural way of life.
Going back on subject... I had lost faith in myself... does anyone have any idea how that truly feels? It feels like the ground has broken from underneath you and when you catch the edge before falling, you look up at yourself and your other you walks away to let you fall. I loved myself. I was confident. I knew I was pretty...
What has happened to me? I need to know.
I discovered myself while I was in the shower and for a moment my mind went blank. Then my self attained glow faded and I whispered: "I'm nothing special..." and I began to cry. I'm not anything special. I never was. Now when I look in the mirror I think: "Hey, I look cute today..." then I sadden and say: "But... there's always someone at school that looks cuter than I do." and I look away. When I get a test back and see the grade I say: "Hey, I'm pretty smart..." then I sadden and say: "But... there's always someone smarter than me... and someone who got a better grade..." From my understanding: this way of thinking is not healthy, but rather unhealthy and self destroying. I don't want to another "Jo"... I want to be special. I want to feel special. I want people to think I'm special.
Despite popular women's magazines that say things like: "you don't need anyone to make you feel special..." that doesn’t apply to me times a thousand. I live and thrive from compliments. Other people make me feel special. That’s just the way I am. Nothing else matters, but for me to have a lasting affect on people. I don't want fame; I just want to make a difference.
I'm falling deeper and deeper everyday and becoming more sensitive to the things around me. Remember my 2nd entry? I see why these things are happening now and I can't live like that. Things aren't as beautiful as they used to be. My world is turning gray.
I need help. But when I call for it I am ignored or belittled and I'm falling apart because of it. I'm falling apart! I was once the most together person I knew, but now things are fading. Rusting. Rotting. Aging. And I can't stand it.
I was at youth group the other day and we talked about the tax collector and the Jewish police [I don't remember what it's called exactly. Something with a "P"]. They went to the temple and both prayed to god. Well... skipping many important details, Jesus said: "... He who exalts himself is humbled. And He who humbles himself is exalted..." when will this apply to me?
Ever since I moved to North Carolina in April of 2003, I have never been truly happy. The term: The Shit Just Hit the Fan applies here quite well. Only this was a really huge piece of shit. And that piece of shit contained my soul. And now I'm in that room right now --the room with shit on the wall-- trying to pick out the pieces of me, but it's so hard, and I'm alone. The door is locked, but no one wants to come in anyway. The key's outside and I'm locked inside, i need someone to pick up the key and let me out. I need help picking myself up off the wall too, because I’m slipping. The fan is still spinning, what could be worse?
Posted at 4:14 pm by Fondue
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